things we want may not always be our's

hello and Assalamualaikum :)
hey bloggie.
i don't know why i tend to write this blog.
whenever i felt happy or sad, first thing i remember is to post a blog.
and right now, i'm posting a blog because a feel kind of sad.
haha. it's quite funny when i actually said that.
yes i'm upset.
it's because something i want it to be just can't be.
may be i'm good in math or phy, but this kind of matter,
i just can't handle it.
i'm so done with it.
i'm fine being a loner, rather than being someone that may break a friendships and find herself in guilty.
that doesn't sound good, is it ?
i back off. that's what i'm doing.
yes, no one will get hurt. everyone is okay.
sometimes i hate being older than before.
i miss the old times so much.
where me and my friends had good times, did crazy things together, and at that time, i was so fine with my relationship things.
now, it seems to screw up.
may be someday i'll be just happy as i am before :)
i pray for that.
may be i did lots of stupid things which i shouldn't do, but i'm so recovered.
oh yes, another new chapter of my life is about to begin.
just hope that tomorrow will give me a little bit of happiness
:)
bye and assalamualaikum.